Tuesday, August 13, 2019

money

[12:05 AM, 8/14/2019] : I call #1 the "Boner test" --- aka how hard you make my boner. Do I find myself masturbating to you? When I do masturbate to you, how do I feel about it? Do I finish to you? How do I feel about all of that?

[12:07 AM, 8/14/2019] : #3 for me is stressful... which is why I look for someone who can operate well within a budget. Anyone can live well with infinite money. The trick is to figure out how much you have or how hard you want to work and live as well as possible. I just made a million dollars and I think I'll make my second million this next month. I've been single the whole way through because I'm surrounded by girls who are worthless.. They are vacant money pits who compete over who can do the dumbest stuff and light their lives on fire until their beauty fades

[12:09 AM, 8/14/2019] : i've offered my place, my time, flights, thousands of cards, lots of positive energy, thoughts, offers

[12:10 AM, 8/14/2019] : everyone wants the same thing basically

[12:10 AM, 8/14/2019] : not everyone understands how money truly works

[12:10 AM, 8/14/2019] : most people really suck at it

[12:10 AM, 8/14/2019] : they like the fast shiney

[12:11 AM, 8/14/2019] : it runs me ragged

[12:11 AM, 8/14/2019] : for me, it all comes full circle back to nice.

[12:11 AM, 8/14/2019] : #2 fun is possible if they aren't nice for a while

[12:11 AM, 8/14/2019] : but after a while my feelings get hurt and #2 no longer is possible

[12:11 AM, 8/14/2019] : being nice isn't difficult

[12:12 AM, 8/14/2019] : i try as hard as i can to be nice

[12:12 AM, 8/14/2019] : but you can't get lost in the process, you have to be nice to yourself first

[12:12 AM, 8/14/2019] : #4 is realizing that you and i are going to die

[12:12 AM, 8/14/2019] : there is a sense of urgency there somewhere

[12:13 AM, 8/14/2019] : you never know when death is going to come for you

[12:13 AM, 8/14/2019] : could be this year

[12:13 AM, 8/14/2019] : in creating life, you may die, your partner may die, your children may die

[12:13 AM, 8/14/2019] : we all will, eventually

[12:14 AM, 8/14/2019] : but, you're going to want someone who takes the time to pay attention

[12:14 AM, 8/14/2019] : not everyone can afford to pay attention

[12:14 AM, 8/14/2019] : distractions are everywhere

[12:14 AM, 8/14/2019] : part of that for me is... #1

[12:14 AM, 8/14/2019] : is she hot enough that when i'm masturbating that i feel like i want to cum for her

[12:14 AM, 8/14/2019] : do i want to create life with her?

[12:15 AM, 8/14/2019] : if i'm out walking around with her do i want to meet other women?

[12:15 AM, 8/14/2019] : anyway

[12:15 AM, 8/14/2019] : yes, for me, it is ... i look for nice...

[12:16 AM, 8/14/2019] : i try to qualify the quality of their brain

[12:16 AM, 8/14/2019] : the quality of their family

[12:16 AM, 8/14/2019] : the quality of their genetics for me.. creating life

[12:16 AM, 8/14/2019] : do i want to merge my soul with theirs?

[12:16 AM, 8/14/2019] : when i die, will i not want to die because of how much i love my life and what i've done?

[12:17 AM, 8/14/2019] : will i love my family?

[12:17 AM, 8/14/2019] : will i love myself?

[12:17 AM, 8/14/2019] : will i feel fond of how i did it all?

[12:17 AM, 8/14/2019] : do i feel good about it?

[12:17 AM, 8/14/2019] : did i do a good job?

[12:17 AM, 8/14/2019] : it's a lot to think about

[12:18 AM, 8/14/2019] : and reality sets in

[12:18 AM, 8/14/2019] : these are the things i think about when i meet people from time to time

[12:18 AM, 8/14/2019] : i can't choose who loves me

[12:18 AM, 8/14/2019] : most people don't seem to

[12:19 AM, 8/14/2019] : most people don't seem to have the time to figure it out

[12:19 AM, 8/14/2019] : or they have something better to do

[12:19 AM, 8/14/2019] : i can't blame them, i mean, even though i make over $100,000 a year, i live on a budget for someone that makes like $30,000 a year so that's not very bright and shiney and flashy

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