get it..

it's better to go try to do stuff now, because you will have other things in the future. i have so much stuff it is overwhelming.. in the past I used to think about throwing it all away or something like that. I literally have stuff that I've had since i moved here 2-3 years ago that I don't think I've touched. I have clothes that I've never worn. I have clothes from back when I had to go into work in an office setting. I have stuff laying around. none of it matters. What matters is having enough time and energy and the financial ability to want to go do the stuff that you want to spend your time doing. i think i need to travel because no one seems to want to date me here... so i'm not sure what the move is here. i don't really want to go anywhere but i feel like i have to go somewhere, haha. it all revolves around my investments that haven't worked out in years.. but should here shortly... im not sure what the goal is then.. the place where i am is okay for me now, but it's pretty lonely .. i'm so lazy lately. there are always things to do.. but anyway.. i'm not entirely sure what to do... it's amazing... it's like, whenever i think about it, it makes me appreciative. but when i start, i don't like it and want to throw it all away, haha.