Hinge

 Just saw you on hinge, you looked good. I paused my profile. I saw your text a few days ago, a few days after you sent it. From your point of view I ignored the topic.

You said that you aren't sure what we are and pointed out my fail to deliver on valentines day where you came through in spades. You mentioned flowers and a handwritten letter, and I have been feeling bad for disappointing.

I don't know. On one hand, no one has ever treated me as well as you have. No one has loved me as much as you have. No one has cared about me as much as you have.

I've been waking up every day this past month with a pit in my stomach. It has been slightly disorienting but so too has the past 7 years.

I am not sure about labels. I'm confused about everything. It's tough for me to evaluate because I've been encumbered in self imposed purgatory. You deserve better than this. I will agree with you there. You've basically been bending over to spend your time with me when you should have been walking tall.

I have tried to be as much of a human as possible in this process.

Maybe I'll regret this moment for the rest of my life? I don't know that either.

I guess my view is that what is meant to be will be.

Thanks to the world.