Oh well

 She has been gone for over a month now. Not to be heard from. Not to be seen. Unfollowed me so i am just chilling now. Idk. 

Feeling bad

 I just feel bad now

I disappoint. In every way. To everybody

That is how it goes

When i try to help

People point back at me

In ways that make me feel bad

I do not know what i am doing

Go to the beach alone

Surrounded by tens of thousands

Few and far between

Knowing nothing

Why am i doing this

Does anything make sense anymore

These last seven years have been marked with pain

And i have caused so much suffering

And now is supposed to be the best time

But it hurts

And i am just bleh. 

Merci.