to me it's just ... appreciating life now
wish i could do more
i have so much free time
that just burns a hole in the sky
i mean
i just don't want anyone else in my life until i have space for them
unless they can create their own space
i can respect that
i'm open
but i'm not going to go out and try to make my space in someone else's life until i've got that space in my own
i mean, i just don't want to always have to work for it
i want to get into a pattern of making choices on what i want to do instead of what i have to do
right now that pattern involves
just doing whatever it takes to get as much gse stock as possible
because i think gse stock is the path to increasing the value of my time
in theory i will get to spend less time thinking about if i want to do stuff because of it's cost or not and more time figuring out neat stuff to do that is within my budget
the problem is that i don't like trading future time so that i can do stuff now, i want to do stuff now and not have it directly impact what i have to do unless it's something i want to do
there is the challenge of truly understanding what it is that one wants to do and my primary motivation for getting rich as quick as possible
